End of the Word

No no, not in the most literal sense of “I’m quitting my dumb website forever”. Tempting, but no. The sunk cost fallacy compels me to type something, even if motivation is a constant struggle.

(Geez, don’t look too disappointed)

But I know my self imposed schedule has been slipping pretty badly of late. I can’t guarantee it’ll get better, but I’m gonna try reformatting to a more unfocused sludge based output rather than trying to find or force a particular topic. So I suppose a more apt title for this “”week’s”” word vomit could be “end of the *sensible* word”.

There’s no specific catalyst for this beyond “I remembered I’m a lazy slacker”. Certainly, a lack of free time is a factor, but frankly I have a lot of free time. I just waste it in supremely stupid ways. Like, I’ve been playing FF14 for a while now, largely to enjoy it on its own merits, but driven by a sense of “I need to catch up to where to current newest content is”. And I did that prior to Dawntrail coming out, and have been broadly at the lead of the stuff that I’m interested in putting effort into. But not, it’s a bit like… I’m playing it out of inertia rather than genuine desire. It’s still fun, but it’s oddly more structured than when I was driven by the goal of catching up. Instead of broadly following the main plot and wandering around doing stuff that’s interesting, I’m just getting my daily log-in, doing a single big battle, and going to sleep.

But that’s all besides the point. I desire more time to do stuff, and to better utilise that time. Or at the very least, to be happy enough wasting it that I don’t start a website just to have a place I can collect all my various whining about how much time I’m wasting.